Hey, how has it been going? I’ve had some stuff going on. Nothing tragic or devastating, just “stuff”. The kind that creates an uncertainty about the future and upsets the comfort of today. Just “stuff”. Frustrating stuff. Stuff that is out of your control. Stuff that keeps you up at night. Stuff that invades the few hours you do sleep.
You get the idea. It’s just been that kind of a week but that is when these lyrics come hammering home:
This is the stuff that drives me crazy
This is the stuff that’s getting to me lately
In the middle of my little mess
I forget how big I’m blessed
This is the stuff that gets under my skin
But I gotta trust You know exactly what You’re doing
It might not be what I would choose
But this is the stuff You use
One thing I know about myself is that I often need not-so-gentle reminders that I am completely out of control. I need “stuff” that reminds me where my hope, my strength, my future, my present all come from….and it’s not me. Since my mind tends to get the best of me more often than not, I need a shift in perspective and reminder. I was recently reminded how big I am blessed and it had nothing to do with things or material items. It was all about a 6 year old and some time together.
Princess 2.0 and I had an easter egg hunt in our house. Something so simple as plastic eggs, time and the laughter of a 6 year old reminded me that all of that “stuff” I was wrestling with really doesn’t matter. A few short moments in time and the simplicity of a child reminded me that all those fears, the future, what might happen, are so meaningless in the present. So trivial RIGHT NOW. What matters is what is happening today in this very moment and the moments that follow. It’s so easy to get so far ahead of ourselves that we neglect the present.
By “present” I mean gift of today.